i know i know, i promised to blog by friday. too busy lately. i'm constantly tired so easily nowadays! anyway, the reason for my lack of energy is probably due to my studies and my new job!
i'm still working in the fashion merchandising field, this time in the jewellery industry. that's right! i'm now a staff of Aspial-Lee Hwa Jewellery Pte Ltd! Aspial, which is only located at changi airport, Lee Hwa Jewellery, Gold Heart and Citigems belongs to my new company! also, my company has recently partnered with maxicash and also has business in the private housing industry. so diversified right! anyway, i'm working in the retail merchandising department, which is divided into three teams, Aspial/Lee hwa, Gold Heart and Citigems (duh). guess which team am i in? hahaha, Citigems of course!
for those who don't know, Aspial/Lee Hwa caters to the super atas, rich tai tais, Gold Heart tackles middle class working adults, and Citigems' target audience are teenagers to young working adults (like me)! so obviously our items are lower priced and more 'fun and young' looking as compared to Lee Hwa and Gold Heart. so my team consist of the more younger age group staffs! me being the youngest (duh, as usual). which is probably why they put me in Citigems i guess? lol.
my team, besides me, the manager and assistant manger, comprises of malaysians! lol! out of nine people in the Citigems team, only three of us are singaporeans. one of them is married with two kids, while two of my colleagues are getting married soon! one getting married end of this month, the other going to get her wedding photos taken end of this month! envious please! when is my turn huh? *hint hint* hehehe!
i don't know whats wrong with me! baby and i finally found a second chance together in a steady relationship not too long ago, after an almost five years break (all those patches, near patches and hot & cold brushes in between not counted ), and i'm already thinking of marriage and spending the rest of our lives together! maybe cause we've known and remained close to each other all those years, so is like finally can get together again, and we both love and can't get enough of each other, next step would be to settle down and spend the rest of our lives together. or maybe simply cause baby keeps putting that idea in my head luh. he's the one who keeps going on and on about our future marriage life, future kids, future house and stuff like that. hehehe, not that i don't like it when he talks about that! *shy*
i admit i do think about it also, just that i used to try to avoid talking or thinking about it? i was afraid we would break off shortly after. our past relationship never seemed to be able to last long, so i didn't want to get my hopes too high, only to have it shattered into pieces again. probably also because after so many years of not having him as my boyfriend, i slowly started to give up the hope of ever being together again and accepted him as just a close friend. of course i was thrilled when he came back and expressed interest in me, but it took time, plenty of courage, and a leap of faith to be willing to risk the possibility of having my heart broken by him again. as dumb and blinded by love as i might be, i still had a (not so much) sense of self-preservation.
however, four months into our relationship, things are going rather smooth, although recently our relationship started to have a few minor hiccups and mini-fights. (most of the time i'm the only one bitching and throwing tantrums over petty stuff luh, baby has been graciously trying to give in to me and maintain his patience. *ashamed* baby, thank you and i love and appreciate you for that!) we're both trying our best to accept each other for who we are, and trying hard to avoid major fights (which used to happen on a weekly basis in the past).
things are starting to look up, although other certain factors seem to be trying to threaten our bond. the good news being, my family and extended family likes him and are open to have him around in family events and outings. i just wish he can be more patient about family outings. i would be if i was invited to his family outings, no matter how draggy or late it was. the even better news being, his mum finally deciding to give me a chance to prove my worth and try to accept me. also, baby has been making an effort to treat me better! i really really really appreciate it a lot! baby, your efforts have not been gone unnoticed! definitely more brownie points for you! hehehe! :D
bad news is that he signed on air force and after his training, will be working super irregular hours and that he would be sent for overseas detachments, which lasts months per trip. le sigh. :( i so do not want to be apart from baby! i have a cousin who's an engineer. he works every weekdays and most saturdays, sometimes even on sunday. he has to rush back whenever something stupid arises back at his workplace. i'm not sure about his working hours, but it seems like he leaves for work early, and comes home late. i sooooo do not want that to happen to baby and me please! when and how often would i then get to see his charming 'uncle' face and sexy body that i love so much? (yes, i seriously think he is charming and cute and handsome and sexy and hot! even though a lot of you might not agree! beauty is in the eye of the beholder okay! and yes, i will seriously smack you or skewer you to death with my 黑脸 (black face) and death glare if you dare input any of your negative opinions of my baby!)
up till now, i still think it was a stupid decision for him to sign on! i don't care about how much more he makes! i care about spending quality time with him! i care about having him by my side when i need him, seeing him when i miss him, and cuddling in his arms when we slack around at home! i'd very much rather he spend mondays to fridays in camp, earning pathetic pay, and get the heck done and over with NS in two years. at least then we have the next three years to compensate for the lost time! given the current situation, i'd have to spend most of my time alone while he slaves his five years away and fly here and there for months without me! sounds horrible, but what's the point of having a boyfriend if he is hardly there for you? someone obviously wasn't thinking of me when he decided to sign on. *grumbles*
sigh, i guess i can't do anything about it. just have to hold on and 忍 for the next five years. *grumble grumble, shows pouty sad face* pray that five years will fast forward! heh, i wish. :( and if he comes out and works as an engineer and his working life is as hectic and busy as my cousin's, well, i'll be damned. :( sigh, the things i have to put up with just cause i'm stupid and blind enough to happily fall in love with him. stupid and blind, but still happy. chicken backside! what kind of complicated feelings are those sia! grrr...
anyway! enough text for this post! shall post the flowers baby got for me! if only i could post pictures of us without having to censor his face! makes me happy to share (and brag, i admit) all those wonderful memories and the blissfulness baby makes me feel! i just love staring at our photos. i sometimes suspect my feelings grow deeper each time i look at our photos! lol! his face, be it photos or real life, never fails to put a smile on my face. (:
#1 first ever bouquet from baby, on our fourth monthsary!
#2 outfit for the day, plus flowers from baby!
#3 camwhoring with the flowers.
#4 more camwhoring!
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